I think it's past time to do a catch-up post--who am I now, what am I doing with my life??

(whenever I ponder this, the start of a poem chants in my head...I am mother, daughter, sister, lover. /I am biologist, trivia gura, friend, and poet. /I am here and now, there and then /and finding my way back again. /tell me where are you if you want my truth?....)

we traveled for almost a year. I grew. I went through a long wake-up out of mania from too many years of hard work, brain-drain, depression and not dealing with grief and anger. I did the Artists Way and found more drawer in me than writer at that time. I opened up again. My husband and I began to love again after sleepwalking in our relationship for years. I watched my daughter grow.

We moved to Tucson. I opened a business. I alternate between workaholic and learning to love my family, balance my work, and learning so very much about myself. I healed a lot. I am no longer in constant pain (my back had developed a constant ache). I am writing again. I am finding a community. I am finding wonderful friends and at the same time just lost a friendship--can I even remember ever loosing a friendship I couldn't (or didn't want to?) fix?

I am sad that she hates me so much and don't know what I did other than be. But I've learned that I have a overdeveloped need to be loved--I freak if I think someone doesn't like....but I've started to outgrow that...I can handle it. I deal with too many people now to not have some people decide they don't like me!

I'm learning how differnet being an employee is from being a business owner.  ¶ 5:41 PM