Monday, July 19, 2004
I do not really feel like writing today, but I have to get back in the habit. things are progressing with the house...we had the realtor come over on Saturday and she evaluated how much we need to do before listing the house. She said the upstairs looked really good and would show well, the yard and the downstairs are the biggies. We must get the yard tidied up as that is a huge thing with showing hte house. We went round and round about the carpet--she wants us to replace it, we don't really want to. Her numbers she threw out about the differences were a bit confusing.
The house isn't going to list as high as I thought, which isn't the end of the world. It is just scary thinking about taking off to live on an amount that basically is one current years salary! I have to keep in mind though that our living expenses will be minimal and little to no taxes! We can also/will also be working a bit and if all else fails, we can just work more or sooner! I had worked myself into a weird mental place, annoyed that we were only going to make a profit of around 80K...then I realized that it was more like 135K, but you have to take the new truck and other debts out of that amount. Not a bad investment. Greg also pointed out that we don't need a downpayment to buy another house and remodel--because of the VA loan. I kept thinking we needed a downpayment plus money to remodel, but we don't.
Huge changes in life are never easy. They are always scary. Once I see our RV, it'll seem much more like home instead of that we are leaving home.
I'm finally coming off my "need a baby" kick. I am so sad because my friend M had a miscarriage last week. She was 13.5 weeks. You just don't expect to have a m/c that late. Its horrible. I totally cried after I got off the phone with her, I am just so sad. It seems awful to say, but in some way, her having a m/c makes my own seem much less of a thing...I barely even saw a positive test, she was through the whole first trimester. I had this weird feeling of guilt--as if because I had a miscarriage, it actually caused hers. We were both pregnant at the same time last time and have babies two weeks apart. It was weird to me that she was going to have a second baby and I wasn't...and now neither of us will have a second right now.
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The house isn't going to list as high as I thought, which isn't the end of the world. It is just scary thinking about taking off to live on an amount that basically is one current years salary! I have to keep in mind though that our living expenses will be minimal and little to no taxes! We can also/will also be working a bit and if all else fails, we can just work more or sooner! I had worked myself into a weird mental place, annoyed that we were only going to make a profit of around 80K...then I realized that it was more like 135K, but you have to take the new truck and other debts out of that amount. Not a bad investment. Greg also pointed out that we don't need a downpayment to buy another house and remodel--because of the VA loan. I kept thinking we needed a downpayment plus money to remodel, but we don't.
Huge changes in life are never easy. They are always scary. Once I see our RV, it'll seem much more like home instead of that we are leaving home.
I'm finally coming off my "need a baby" kick. I am so sad because my friend M had a miscarriage last week. She was 13.5 weeks. You just don't expect to have a m/c that late. Its horrible. I totally cried after I got off the phone with her, I am just so sad. It seems awful to say, but in some way, her having a m/c makes my own seem much less of a thing...I barely even saw a positive test, she was through the whole first trimester. I had this weird feeling of guilt--as if because I had a miscarriage, it actually caused hers. We were both pregnant at the same time last time and have babies two weeks apart. It was weird to me that she was going to have a second baby and I wasn't...and now neither of us will have a second right now.
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