I am reading a wonderful book called Buddhism for Mother's. Instead of being written by a monk or enlighted buddhist, it is written by a normal mom who has been buddhist for years, but hasn't even been able to go on a retreat longer than 2 days. The book gives a lot of background about buddhism, then talks about how buddhism can go hand in hand with being a parent. I've felt for a long time that parenting has to be the ultimate spiritual journey. What better way to be challenged to be our best? REading the book is reminding me to remember to be present.

I've been on such a high of energy over the last 4-5 days. Today is the first day that I feel lethargy creeping back in. I'm not depressed or anything though. Kindof mellow. I am ticked about this trial program I installed on my computer called Mvelopes. It is a budgeting program and I thought it might be easier because it is more basic than Quicken. Ugh. I like Quicken way better. Mvelopes is a newish program that doesn't have the bugs worked out and it isnt' intuitive at all. I'm ticked because to get the free trial, you have to pay $6.90 shipping and handling for a CD! I know, should have known. You can download the damn program 30 sec after you pay the 6.90. I think that given that I have a laptop for work now, I may be able to keep up with the finances if I install quicken on my work computer. I'll have to check to see if I can password protect it. my home computer is so buggy it drives me nuts.

The point of that whole paragraph was meant to be the fact that I noticed the lethargy/anger/depression and tried to be "present" with it. it does help. Knowing that I should be working and am not is a huge part of the problem. I'm done fiddling with finances, I've made an appointment for the tax guy...its time to work. Sigh.

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